Thankyou for responding SOTKForEver. I see people as ready, willing and eager to understand "why" they exist on the earth. There are many explanations. The pure fact of the matter is that it all happened a long time ago and we may never know the absolute truth of it. We have a choice of what to believe, this I see as a freedom.
The difference between you and I is that I recognise that my choice, that of no design or plan on behalf of a supernatural intelligence, does not lead to anything but information. It does not improve the world, make me happy, reassure me about death, give me any comfort whatsoever or give me a reason or purpose for being here, athough it does explain why I am here, but not "why" in the sense of "purpose", a reason, why in the sense of causality. I accept that I have no ultimate purpose other than, if I choose to follow my evolutionary programming, to pro-create. We are no more important than a stone, other than to other humans, because importance is a human perception. If all humans where to be wiped out, the world and the universe would continue quite happily, and probably slightly relieved, any natural unbalance would be absorbed. We are not needed! The theist belief on the other hand satisfies desire. It creates comfort, provides reason, a purpose, satisfaction, a feeling of doing something right with potention of it being recognised and rewarded, a sense of being needed. These demands are part of human nature and can be observed most easily in a child which is where we must look to see the innocent uncorrupted essense of who we are.
Now, I do not have absolute faith in science. Science is not a thing or a god or an intelligence unto itself. It is the process that humans use to explain things, that is all. The human mind, I would expect, is limited in what it can understand and so science is ultimatley limited, but that is now. Science has proved itself to be capable of expanding and discoveries are made all the time and it would not be such a huge leap of faith to expect science to explain more in the future. By the same token, evolution is in operation continually and it too will affect us and maybe we will grow enough to be able to understand and discover more. We simply do not know. Science is not perfected, it is an ongoing process, the same can be said for evolution.
The god of gaps argument is simply that we recognise that we do not know everything. The bits we dont know may or may not be eventualy explained by science. In the mean time science theorises, makes educated guesses, based on current scientific knowledge, and attempts to understand. These are not leaps of faith but logical projections, but not guaranteed to be absolute truths, thats why they are called theories. The willingness of the theist to simply and glibly state that god did it is not good enough as it could be equally simply and glibly stated that aliens did it.
The bible is a book, that is all. I read profound material everyday and what I have learned is that it doesnt need to change your life to be appreciated. If a book tells me that I must pray four times a day I would want a bit more justification for these commands on my free will before I do any of it. Threats I will disregard as further infringement on my liberty. Thats not to say the book should be totally disregarded, it is a good read and yes I have read it.
Morality is understandable in terms of evolution. We are animals, and just as physical characteristics evolve and are selected, so are personal and brain characteristics. Thought and cognitive function, behavour, all are subject to evolution. The essence of who-we-are evolved. I respect and admire the natural world and am proud to be a member. A "god background" does not give theists the moral high ground because we can freely admit we have morality to, by virtue of evolution and unlimately society, everybody has it. But, it is your own. Remember that the Crusaders and Inquisitors thought they held the moral high ground as they slashed and tortured thier amoral victims. Morality does not exist outside of the mind, but it does exist, in various forms. Nobody has a valid claim to having the "best" morals because it is all opinion, stuctured by evolution and everything else that has the slightest effect on the psyche.
Knowledge is subject to some belief and faith. If I stand at my door and see a car knocking down a pedestrian, I know that it happened. I may be hallucinating and it did not happen, but I am sure enough that I can say I know, but could still be wrong. So, knowledge is not concrete as we can only know what our brains record and they are apt to be mistaken. We have faith enough in our brains to "know", otherwise we couldnt function. Evidence reinforces knowledge and holds the questions at bay. The question is, how much evidence is required to say that you "know" something? Science appoaches this with experimentation and the ability to control enviroment, testing the theory and gathering evidence and proving hypothesis by repetition. We tend to believe our eyes and the words of those we regard as authorititive who we respect. Information that is appealing is tended to be believed more than that which isnt appealing. So we see that even knowledge itself is not an absolute unquestionable reality. We dont question all our knowledge all the time because some things we have to just accept or we would not even get out of bed each day, so, we live on faith. Can we truly know anything?
Sorry for not resonding to all your points but my post was getting rather large and dare I say it, preachy, hope not.
I still believe that you overcame your personal problems by your own volition. I know about the mental state of addiction. Dependance and tolerance are seperate issues. Not all addicts recover via god, though many do, I know some personally. This reinforces my belief in the strength of faith because, as I have already stated, it is faith that is the root of our being, it is how we think. What we have faith in is another matter.