:chuckle: Well, you're a creature of long course and study, progression toward a certain form. I'm a much more newly minted bit and still mulling much of it. I know my call from God was an overwhelming, personal revelation and I know the source of it. I understand my obligation to faith and the nature of evil, the eternal salvation of my soul and, I believe, the point of that. Most else remains on the table, though I am as confident today as yesterday that I am a creature of my own will, a good hunting dog running to the sound of his master's voice not out of fear or conditioning, but love. I find a number of Calvinist points well taken and all of the theology rational and systematically sound. My own, such as it is, has not half the order, symmetry and intellectual beauty in construction...and yet I am convinced and convicted that this cobbled and wobbling thing is the way of it for me and the path I was called to take (and took of my own free if perfected will). As soon as I know more than that you will. :cheers: