i think God would also respect my decision to be skeptical as it shows i can think for myself will not be swayed by pressure from others and have not rejected him i simply want to know he exists before committing myself blindly based on advice from somebody else
The problem I've always seen is not really skepticism, has not ever been, yet, with anybody I've known. This certainly doesn't mean it's impossible otherwise, of course. I don't know everybody, but none I've seen, which makes the probability of intellect and reason prevailing small. Beneath the surface, disbelief has to do with fatal vanity and lack of all important repentance required for salvation, but this is another subject.
The problem is spiritual blindness, that, if you're not born of God, of the Holy Spirit, you will never see the truth. Many say you can't prove there's a God, but a few of us know this isn't true. Fulfilled Bible prophecy proves that only God could have given scripture, only an omniscient, supernatural being could have knowledge of many events, perfectly fulfilled, hundreds and thousands of years before they happened. It's impossible fulfilled Bible prophecy of simply the first coming of the Lord Jesus, in great detail in the Old Testament, could be random, far beyond impossible, by accepted statistical methods of proof, accepted in scientific experimentation to verify a hypothesis. Any other hypothesis, that is, that doesn't have stubborn refusal to believe, under any circumstance, stubborn closed mindedness, at the front end. But the "skeptic" will deny what is right there, in black and white, for thousands of years, on the printed page of God's book that proves, beyond all doubt, as God Himself declares,
Isaiah 46:9-10 Remember the former things of old: for I am God, and there is none else;
I am God, and there is none like me, declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure.
It's all over the web, all the evidence you need, places like:
Reliability of the Bible
Odds Surrounding Jesus Christ
There is much like this on the web, at anybody's fingertips to Google, that prove the God of the Bible. (Yet most wouldn't even bother to look, a sort of reverse Christian teaching at work in unregenerate man, "Don't seek, and you won't find.")
But the thing is, in my experience, even a Phd in mathematics will go stupid for believing what he wants to believe, when you show him he's clearly wrong, by the very same proofs of a plethora of other science he will accept as proven, the statistics involving prophecy even a number so high as to not be chance that nobody can name what the "one in a" number is, with so many zeros after it. Everybody I've shown this, personally, still will not believe, as the Lord stated,
Luke 16
27 Then he said, I pray thee therefore, father, that thou wouldest send him to my father's house:
28 For I have five brethren; that he may testify unto them, lest they also come into this place of torment.
29 Abraham saith unto him, They have Moses and the prophets; let them hear them.
30 And he said, Nay, father Abraham: but if one went unto them from the dead, they will repent.
31 And he said unto him,
If they hear not Moses and the prophets, neither will they be persuaded, though one rose from the dead.
It's not really skepticism with most people. It's not that people can't believe in the Lord, rather they won't believe in the Lord. People wind up in hell, because they refuse to repent, insist on believing what they want to believe, and cannot dislodge that other god, self. I've known many who acknowledge God, but refuse Him, something many try to hide, but it often finally comes to the surface, that it's a matter of refusing God, not wanting God.
I would pray, if you have it in you to think hard about whether you wish to be an eternal loser, that you take a serious look at Jesus Christ, examine the prophecy stats and at least put the skepticism business to bed, realize you are in the most serious trouble anybody can be in, if you don't repent and believe in the Lord Jesus to save you from the sure wrath of God that will fall on all who refuse His grace, and condemn you to eternal hell. When you're one heartbeat away from this, it's not a matter to fool around over. Also, it all becomes clear to you, when you're saved and born from above, of the Holy Spirit. The scales will fall off your blinded eyes, your deaf ears opened, and you finally see what was clearly true and was always there, all the time. In fact, God never asked for blind faith.
Wishing you God's speed to find salvation.
