btw eeset - you're relatively new
i've seen town pull this routine more than a couple times in the past several years
it's old hat by now
Come on, koban. You know better. I've been giving you grief in response to grief for years now. This is new ground. What's so wonderful about all that animosity you're carrying? What's it going to get you, do for anyone?
I can tell you. Nothing. Nothing at all. Let go of it. It's easy.
Here's how: I forgive you every single thing you've done to me. I don't want to carry that. And every time you speak against me this is what you're getting for as long as I'm here.
Now try to find me ever doing that where you're concerned. You won't. Oh, I've been getting into the neighborhood, considering my obligation to extend a hand, but on condition. But what's that? Conditions are for ego and Jesus didn't say, forgive them, provided...so neither will I.
God has a plan for anyone who wants it. I think you could do a tremendous good here. I've said as much but it bears repeating. It's hard for me to imagine a better witness if you let go of the impediments to it.
I'm rooting for that and for you.
Let it go. You'll feel so much better you won't believe it.