It's exactly that kind of attitude that separates us from God. The unconscious belief is if we let go of the bible as a reference we will be swallowed up by a big black void of emptiness. That makes us feel worthless and we judge our feelings as bad after numerous bites of the forbidden fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. We unknowingly separate ourselves from that emptiness but it is a part of us. It is part of what is eternal and infinite. Here is unconscious self-rejection staring us right in the face. We have judged this part of ourselves as worthless. Here is unconscious lack of self-esteem staring us in the face as well. We don't think we are good enough to survive with this emptiness partly because we don't know it is the soul yet ironically it leads to eternal life. We believe we are nothing without our precious beliefs and scriptures to hold on to. This is not true. It's the reverse. We actually begin to become everything instead.
Returning to this emptiness again and again marks the beginning stages of awakening to the fact that we are one with this emptiness, this eternity and infinity. Know that "...they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint." The emptiness slowly starts to become a presence instead of an absence. It nourishes us and we begin to crave it and want more. It is the peace of God which surpasses all understanding. It casts away all doubts and fears but it takes time. We become like Peter when he tried to walk on the water with Jesus. We have the opportunity to experience the miracle of Jesus turning water into wine when that insipid emptiness starts to become a drunk-like fullness of love and joy that over pours into our cups, so much so that we cannot hold onto it. It overflows and extends outward everywhere and inward as well past the highest of highs forever.
We don't have any control over when or how these experiences happen to us but I can assure you that any desire for some sort of reference point is gong to be a barrier. Approaching the soul involves an attitude of literally throwing everything in the garbage permanently. No bible, no thoughts, no desires, no mind, no sight, no senses, no body, no beliefs, no NOTHING!!!! It is very dark and scary. It literally feels like death on multiple levels and its not enough to just go there once. It takes multiple multiple attempts. "It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God" is a huge understatement. "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it." I raise this to the 100,000th power. Its much much narrower than expected. I don't think everyone can do it. It is a harrowing path but "all things possible with God."