Thanks PX, I too would like to believe in a higher power of some kind but personally I really can't convince myself that any real such entity is likely or has any particular concerns and regard for our wellbeing, and perhaps isn't even aware that we exist in this firework of a universe that was ignited.
What makes you think you have to convince yourself? I am not 'convinced'. I just choose to live according to my need and understanding of that which exceeds me. And barring any reasonable evidence to the contrary, I believe this is logical and reasonable to do. If you note my description, the "higher power" is simply that which fulfills and exceeds me. So it's to that which I turn when my own power is not enough.
I learned this in AA. There were a lot of folks there who didn't believe in any gods. Yet one of the 12 steps requires that the alcoholic "turn himself over" to his "higher power". And it was explained that the higher power didn't have to be a religious "god", necessarily, it just had to be a power greater than themselves. For example, an alcoholic that can stay sober has a 'power' that an alcoholic that can't, lacks. So "turning one's self over" to that 'higher power' simply meant asking the sober alcoholic how they do it, and then following their directions. Perfectly sensible.
In time I developed a conception of this "higher power" that embodied other aspects of my own limitations. Like the limits of my knowledge, the limits of my wisdom, and of my patience, and my forgiveness, and my self-sufficiency, and my courage, and so on. So it's to the embodiment of those "higher powers" that I turn when I find myself lacking. I call the embodiment of those powers, "God", simply because that's the traditional word for it in my language, and I have no animus against that word (as some people do). I even allow myself to conceive of this embodiment of the 'higher powers" as a being, sometimes, simply because it's conceptually easier and more convenient for me to do that. But it's not a requirement. And I often do not conceive of "God" as a 'being'.
I could be completely wrong of course but that's how it seems to me.
Maybe however I should simply not try to rain on other people's parades since spiritual beliefs seem very important to some?
But to answer the OP of this thread I don't hope that a higher power doesn't exist, I simply hope I can face whatever is real, not an imaginary one as well.
I'm not really trying to convince anyone of anything. I'm just trying to point out the reality
behind the religious mythologies and dogmas. And how they work for people. The human imagination is by far our greatest and most powerful tool. We would be fools not to use it to our best advantage simply because it transcends the limitations of physical reality. In fact, it's that very transcendence that, to my mind, makes it all the more "real", in that it is the engine that powers our whole concept of reality. What we call "reality" is an IMAGINED reality, created in our minds, based on our experience of actual reality.
Imagination is the heart and soul of our human experience and understanding. Yes, it needs to be tested against physical reality to keep it from running away with itself. But without it, we wouldn't really even be human, anymore. We'd just be some sort of biological automaton, living by instinct and blind habit.
This is why when atheists dismiss "God" as being 'imaginary', I think they're being very, very naive. Because everything we conceive of we human conceive of through our imagination. Imagination is how our minds function.