Stop your lying. It's pathetic and embarrassing. You have no capacity for shame.
Listen, mind of a small child:
You can't say you're saved AND be at any risk of falling away to damnation. You deny being safe while claiming to be saved. Can't be both.
Of course, we know what you mean when you lie about being saved. It's what all Catholics on boards like this one do. The Catholic says, "Yes, I am saved" but what they REALLY mean is, "I'm saved at this moment, as long as I walk in the grace of good works and don't sin." Next time the Catholic sins, they'd better run to the priest or else they risk dying outside a state of grace.
You have the exact same belief; you just hide it with neutral wording.
You say you're not safe because you could, theoretically, fall away in sin.
That means you're not saved. AT ALL.
Stop lying. You fool no one.