You need to broaden your focus.
What is your walk of faith looking like, e.g.,
-daily Scripture study, rejoicing in hope,
-being patient in tribulation,
-continuing steadfastly in prayer (Romans 12:12), -
fellowship with other believers, keeping stewardship of the secular and spiritual gifts God has given you, and
-with regular assembly with others to worship God, receive instruction, access the ordinary means of grace, and be subject to discipline (see also here, and Genesis 15:1-6; Prov. 3:5-8; Romans 5:1-11; Eph. 6, 1 Cor. 9:24-27; Hebrews 10:19-25, 35-39; Hebrews 11:1,6)?
Have you spoken with your Pastor about this single minded attention of yours on all matters homosexual? What was his counsel?