The damage done to the church by the fathers [so called] is inestimable beginning with Ignatias
My main hurdle or problem right now, with History, is Titus Flavious.
Any History major or buff knows that in 70 AD Titus sacked Jerusalem.
And what I mean by the RCC wrote the NT pertains to this.
Titus Flavious was by Law a Living Son of a God, His Father the Emperor.Making Him as I said a living son of god.
Now many many things in the four Gospels point to what Titus did, a main one is that when Jesus said, "this generation shall not pass untill all is fulfilled" well it was in that time frame, from 33 ad to 70 ad is one generation.
Second is " not one stone will be left unturned" well Titus did in fact level the Temple not leaving one stone standing.
In the early Christian writings that pre date 70 ad , there never was any mention of a virgin birth , 3 day Resurrection, or a saving gospel by faith in a man elevated to god hood status, all these things have major pagan over tones and are , accept for the sign of Jonah, that is a star constellation, very pagan. And also reflects of the attributes of Mithra, the god of Titus and His family.
If Yeshua rose the third day, why did know one know about it till Titus "found" the text. Why does Josephus writings correlate with the four gospels??
This wasent a bang up job done,it was done by the best writers and historians that gold could buy, by a living god man emperor with the world at His disposal.
This is just some of the surface questions, history goes alot deeper,and the deeper you go,it doesnt abode well for the legitimacy of the New Testament.
Its not what I "want" , or a personal goal,other then seeking truth... it is just what I have found. and what I am struggling with.