Pete from the UK shares his testimony. This is a MUST READ. Thank you Pete, your post means so much to me I can't even describe my feelings about it.
(I already had an earlier POTD so I am posting this one for tomorrow)
:first: POTDI haven't had the chance to be on TOL much for the last couple of years, yet TOL has had a guge impact on my life. I know many of you here do know my story, but I felt that I wanted to give those who don't an opportunity to hear it, as many people have told me that it has inspired them.
I was born into a Christian home, and grew up with Christian values instilled into me from a very young age. I was abused by someone close to me when I was 5, and I feel this had a huge impact on me in the years to come. From the age of seven, I started sexually experimenting with boys my age, and this continued into my teen years. When I was 12, I came to believe that I was gay, and by the age of 14, I ‘came out’ to my family and friends. I was just not attracted to girls. I told my parents that I was gay and wanted nothing to do with God. Through my school, I managed to find support groups for LGBT young people and started attending one in Brighton. This helped to re-enforce my belief that I was born gay, and couldn’t change even if I wanted to. I started to hate Christians, and I would often speak of them in a derogatory way.
When I was 16, I decided to run away from my parents. I wanted to live MY life MY way, to do as I pleased. I started living on my own, but even with this newfound freedom to do as I pleased and live a gay lifestyle, I still wasn’t happy. I felt empty on the inside.
I started attending a ‘gay church’, the Metropolitan Community Church (MCC) in Brighton. I learned their theology, and their interpretation of the scriptural passages concerning homosexuality. I started to think like they did and believe like they did. I wanted their beliefs and theology to be true. Whilst attending this ‘church’, something on the inside of me told me ‘this isn’t right’. Also during this time, I joined TOL to post on here the theology that I had learned at the MCC. I got a very harsh response from the Christians here, and I didn’t like it. The LORD used the words that they spoke to me to start to bring about conviction of sin. This all culminated on one night, in October 2005, when at the leading of the website’s owner (knight), I gave my heart to the Lord.
The Lord then started to work in me, changing my attitudes. |I didn’t change overnight, but over the next two years, I could see myself changing as a person. Then one day, God made it possible for me to fall in love with a girl. I fell deeply in love with a Christian friend of mine.. She didn’t feel the same back, but I feel this was God’s way of showing me I was finally free, that I could be in love with a girl.
I sit here writing this now after having just done an outreach at the gay pride in Cardiff, Wales. I spoke to many people about my story, and for the first time ever, today I preached in the street. What a transformation!
Without TOL, I may never have had the opportunity to be reached.
I didn’t choose to have homosexual feelings, but I did choose not to have them. God is so good, to God be the Glory!
(I already had an earlier POTD so I am posting this one for tomorrow)