DarkAsylum
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Hi
i joined here a about a year ago ( might be more years )
to find something to make my life better than it was i have had mental health problems for most of my life i hear and see things i have delusions and i have OCD, for a long time av been going from faiths to faith wanting to understand them for me i seem to be wanting to experience them i was raised Catholic but walked away from the church and followed Wicca , then i followed Islam , then i followed Christianity , then i followed Hinduism / Hare Krishna now am following Christianity again
for some reason i cant break the cycle for some reason
i also have blasphemous thoughts one of them being that Jesus was just a holy man but not the son of God
its goes in my mind over and over i tried praying am seeing a therapist soon
the reason i came back here is that i think i need to learn more about Jesus i have a bible but av only read a small part of it
i was abused as a child by people involved with the church
sometimes am too scared to go to church especially Catholic churches
when i married my husband i was forced to do it my mothers way because she said she will not be there if we go anywhere my mother knows nothing about the abuse or if she was aware of it never done anything to stop it
Any way i want to learn more and trust Jesus and the church
so Hi
i joined here a about a year ago ( might be more years )
to find something to make my life better than it was i have had mental health problems for most of my life i hear and see things i have delusions and i have OCD, for a long time av been going from faiths to faith wanting to understand them for me i seem to be wanting to experience them i was raised Catholic but walked away from the church and followed Wicca , then i followed Islam , then i followed Christianity , then i followed Hinduism / Hare Krishna now am following Christianity again
for some reason i cant break the cycle for some reason
i also have blasphemous thoughts one of them being that Jesus was just a holy man but not the son of God
its goes in my mind over and over i tried praying am seeing a therapist soon
the reason i came back here is that i think i need to learn more about Jesus i have a bible but av only read a small part of it
i was abused as a child by people involved with the church
sometimes am too scared to go to church especially Catholic churches
when i married my husband i was forced to do it my mothers way because she said she will not be there if we go anywhere my mother knows nothing about the abuse or if she was aware of it never done anything to stop it
Any way i want to learn more and trust Jesus and the church
so Hi