My Testimony! - by bibliophile1954
God had lead me to Theology Online, after more than 20+years of being away from Him. I was depressed & suicidal after my latest job had failed, & I saw no hope for myself. I had already almost succeded in killing myself once before, & was determined not to fail this time. When I initially joined TOL, I was a rabble rouser-always trying to destroy Christianity with logic-but little by little, The TOL'ers chipped away at me until I finally got up enough courage to ask them to pray for me. They did, & I finally ended up at a church that had a Saurday evening service.
God had been leading me to that as well, although I didn't realize that until later. I couldn't have been there more than maybe 10-15 minutes , when 3 people came over to me. I told them why I was there, & they prayed with me-it was then, like the prodigal son of the Bible, that THIS prodigal son finally came home! Since that date-January 11,2003- my life has been changed like I never would have believed!
Over the next few weeks, I had developed, (or in this case been given by God), an unbelievably loving spirit. In addition, My swearing that I had done constantly over the past 20+years , virtually vanished, & my hatred of woman that I had all those years all but vanished, as well! I truley consider TOL my family, & because of the burden of love & concern that I have for all of them, as well as for the members of the church I now attend, (this too, after all those 20+years!), I physically cry whenever anyone leaves TOL, because of the endless love that I have for them through Christ Jesus. It is like losing an arm or a leg whenever one of them leave, or there is disharmony among them. They ARE my family!
God has made me into a totally new person, since1/11/03! I may have left Him, but He never gave up on me! When I came back to Him, it was like I had never left! I praise God everyday, for TOL, my church, & most of all for Jesus waiting for me to come home after all those years! The truth Of Hebrews 13, verse 8 was never truer than on 1/11/03-"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, Today, & yes, forever!"
Praise God for His love-a love that I have for all my TOL brothers & sisters, as well as the members of my church! I would sacrifice my self for everyone of them, without a second thought! I never thought I could have this kind of love, but now I can-through the awesome power of Jesus Christ, who never gave up on His prodigal son to come home!
God had lead me to Theology Online, after more than 20+years of being away from Him. I was depressed & suicidal after my latest job had failed, & I saw no hope for myself. I had already almost succeded in killing myself once before, & was determined not to fail this time. When I initially joined TOL, I was a rabble rouser-always trying to destroy Christianity with logic-but little by little, The TOL'ers chipped away at me until I finally got up enough courage to ask them to pray for me. They did, & I finally ended up at a church that had a Saurday evening service.
God had been leading me to that as well, although I didn't realize that until later. I couldn't have been there more than maybe 10-15 minutes , when 3 people came over to me. I told them why I was there, & they prayed with me-it was then, like the prodigal son of the Bible, that THIS prodigal son finally came home! Since that date-January 11,2003- my life has been changed like I never would have believed!
Over the next few weeks, I had developed, (or in this case been given by God), an unbelievably loving spirit. In addition, My swearing that I had done constantly over the past 20+years , virtually vanished, & my hatred of woman that I had all those years all but vanished, as well! I truley consider TOL my family, & because of the burden of love & concern that I have for all of them, as well as for the members of the church I now attend, (this too, after all those 20+years!), I physically cry whenever anyone leaves TOL, because of the endless love that I have for them through Christ Jesus. It is like losing an arm or a leg whenever one of them leave, or there is disharmony among them. They ARE my family!
God has made me into a totally new person, since1/11/03! I may have left Him, but He never gave up on me! When I came back to Him, it was like I had never left! I praise God everyday, for TOL, my church, & most of all for Jesus waiting for me to come home after all those years! The truth Of Hebrews 13, verse 8 was never truer than on 1/11/03-"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, Today, & yes, forever!"
Praise God for His love-a love that I have for all my TOL brothers & sisters, as well as the members of my church! I would sacrifice my self for everyone of them, without a second thought! I never thought I could have this kind of love, but now I can-through the awesome power of Jesus Christ, who never gave up on His prodigal son to come home!
